The Quiet After the Creation – My Creative Life Cycle

It’s the quiet after the creation. My energy is depleted. I never want to do that again (I know I never mean it). 

But let’s begin at the beginning. I am full of energy and feeling good. Light. Effortless. Free of procrastination. A sense of having let go of stress, worry and fear.

I have created a space for creativity and I become inspired.

This following post was originally written late 2017 when I was creating the Mini Journaling Guide in it’s very first, orginal form. It is about becoming aware of my creative energy or energy cycle. I wanted to share again.

It’s the quiet after the creation. My energy is depleted. I never want to do that again (I know I never mean it). 

But let’s begin at the beginning. I am full of energy and feeling good. Light. Effortless. Free of procrastination. A sense of having let go of stress, worry and fear.

I have created a space for creativity and I become inspired.

I have an idea. I have to act or I will lose the essence, the passion behind what I want to share. So I begin to create. It starts off slow, but as momentum gathers, I write faster.

Nothing else exists, I am concentrating wholly on what I am doing, yet not thinking at all.

It’s as though the ideas, the words, the messages, are channelling through me and out of my stiff fingers and onto the screen or paper.

I can sometimes write for hours and not even know the words I have written until I go back over it. The ideas can come so quickly my hand hurts or I can’t type fast enough. Heck, a lot of the time I cannot even read my handwriting, which becomes a deciphering challenge on it’s own.

On Sunday just gone, I was inspired to work on the Journaling Mini Guide. I felt ready to do a whole big chunk of the content, and ended up typing for 3 hours straight. I was in flow, yet I felt challenged. I felt lit-up and on-purpose.

Then my fuel ran out. My ideas dried up. I came up for air, or out of my trance, and realised I was physically and mentally exhausted. But I felt accomplished. Drained yet full.

The old me (the Soapmaker me, or the newbie blogger me), would have interpreted this feeling of fatigue as me not being cut out for blogging (or soapmaking etc). I would have felt regret for even trying, for starting something I might not be able to stick to long term, for wasting time (oh how I used to berate myself for wasting time). I’d want to tear down my work. Quit. Erase it all,  only to be drawn right back to it in a few weeks time.

But something has shifted in me.

You see, your feelings about something in any particular moment is never absolute. It’s not set in stone. Example. You love apples, they are good for your health. You enjoy the apples, but not always. Sometimes you may be too full to feel like an apple. Other times you may have had so many you need a rest from them. Then after a break you realise that hey, maybe you do want an apple? A Granny Smith please! Juicy. Delicious.

That’s what being creative is like for me.  I love being creative. It’s good for my health. I enjoy creating, but not always. Sometimes I am too full (of other things in life) to feel like creating. Other times I have created so much I can get very tired and need a break. I love writing a blog post when I feel like it, but other times I don’t feel like it. But I always come back. It feels juicy and delicious.

Whether its apples or a creation, sometimes I am drawn to them, sometimes I’m too full for them. Whatever the case, it doesn’t mean that because I only like them sometimes I should avoid them completely. How silly. Doesn’t that go against the whole everything in moderation concept? But that is what I used to be like. All in or all out.

So back to my Sunday content creation mini marathon. Once my energy ran out and my ideas stopped flowing, instead of pushing myself to do more, I simply stopped. I acknowledged all I had achieved that day and instead of berating myself for the depletion of energy, I celebrated the concept that my energy had manifested into a creation for my tribe.

Of course I would require a rest. It was okay that I felt mentally drained and physically fatigued, as long as I allowed space to rejuvenate and recharge. And if I didn’t feel like facing the work for another week, then that’s okay.

I no longer feel that I have to be inspired all the time, or feel like creating all the time. The momentum ebbs and flows, or perhaps it is like a stream that sometimes trickles then overflows and and floods. Sometimes the stream dries up, and that is okay too.

I am writing this blog post one week on from my afternoon of working on the Mini Journaling Guide. Proof that I always come back. Proof that I am passionate about being creative. I must have allowed myself enough time for my energy to replenish and space to let the inspiration seep back in.

The creative life cycle has come full circle, and now I need a rest and a cup of tea.

elegantdaydreamer

Introvert | INFP | Explorer of my inner world | Personality Typology Nut | Navigating life as an introvert with some physical limitations | Homebody | Wife | Mother

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